Thursday, January 21, 2010

I'd rather not have the compliment at all

I can't count how many times I have gotten a compliment that has had a backlash to it, a compliment that isn't a compliment at all. Such as, "Wow you have such a pretty face" or "You have such lovely eyes, lips, hair, etc." or my personal favorite of "You are really pretty for a fat girl." What do you say to that other then f&%$ you very much. What women who have who have a couple of extra pounds on their bodies hear is, "You have such a pretty (fill in the blank) but you have a really fat/unattractive body." In my opinion it is just better to not give the compliment at all.

We live in a society that puts so much pressure on people, women in particular, to be beautiful and thin. It isn't going to be that way for all of us. Almost half of all Americans struggle with their weight, it is a sad fact but it is the truth. I can't count how many times I have thought, "If I was thinner I would be happier." The truth of that matter is I would be happier if I was thinner but I want to be thinner so I can live longer.

My greatest fear is developing some sort of weight related disease. So far I have been lucky but you never know how long your luck will hold out. The problem with being overweight is that most of the time there is a reason you became that way. Some reasons can be fixed by medication, some have to be fixed by looking inward and figuring out what the root of the problem is. I have figured out what my root is and now I have to figure out how to tackle it. I am an emotional eater and if something stresses me out or makes me sad or I get bored or I am celebrating something I eat. I can't help it , I know what I am doing is bad but I still put the food in my mouth. In the end I feel guilty and it has done nothing to soothe me. Hopefully some day soon I can figure out how to stop completely but right now when I get the urge to eat out of stress, sadness, fear and happiness I try to eat something that isn't going to put 5 lbs on my a$$ and cause people to give me compliments like, "You have such a beautiful face" and instead give me a compliment of, You have such a great a$$!" Here's hoping. :)

1 comment:

  1. When I was 16 I was consistently ridiculed by a senior guy who was shocked I had never had a boyfriend. The harassment hit its peak when he said "you've got the face" in the tone that oozes with... 'too bad not the body' (which is exactly what I heard in my stunned silence). Since then I've always finished the compliment about my looks with the same sentence, which is why I too hate receiving such remarks.

    Here with ya sista - good luck on the journey

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