Day 5

I know I said I would write every day but it is now Day 5 of South Beach and so far so good. I haven’t had any carbs or sugar and I am not having horrible cravings but I am tired and kind of jittery. I feel foggy but by tomorrow that fog should lift a little. I am feeling good though and am excited to see the weight come off. I know it will be slow but it will be so worth it.

I have come to the realization though that I will never be a skinny mini. I don’t have the body type for it. I will always be on the curvier side of things. Even when I was swimming competitively I was a size 14. I was fit but I wasn’t small by any means. I guess a size 14 for me is healthy, it is doable. Maybe I will get smaller than that but not a whole lot smaller. It is strange how you can be in the product of someone so little and have such a different body type. Genetics are luck of the draw I guess. I have no problem being curvy, just not this curvy although I do feel blessed because the weight has balanced itself out, I don’t have the tomato and tooth pick syndrome as some do. I am looking for the bright side in this. The one good thing about my situation is that I can change it. Being obese (I hate that word) is not a life sentence, it is totally changeable but only I can change it. When I started looking at weight loss options I looked into surgery but when you come down to it it’s still diet and exercise that work. There is no quick fix. The more I attempt to lose the weight the more I realize the truth. I guess the truth hurts sometimes.