Life changes are an interesting thing, you are always growing or adapting but large changes seem to be few and far between unless you actively make them. In the past 4 months I have made some very large changes. I started a new job, moved into my own place, and now I am focusing on my health.
Originally this blog was called Journey from Fat to Fit. Somewhere along the way I lost sight of what I was doing. Life happens… work, school, friends and family intervene… I put other things and other people first as I have a habit of doing. I had a health scare; nothing major but the possibility that something was or could be wrong scared me... a lot. All the tests came back normal. Nothing to be concerned about but it got me thinking. I am carrying easily 100 pounds more then I should be for my height. I may be ok now but what will happen 10 years from now. It’s a sobering thought. I HATE doctors, it’s nothing against them personally, I just have severe White Coat syndrome. What if I continue down the path I am on... if I do I see a lot of Doctors’ visits in my future. I don’t want that, so last week I took the first step.
I joined a gym, for real this time. I paid 18 months up front and committed to a trainer for a year. Ok that’s the easy part, signing up, now I have to be accountable. I started going, the day after I signed up, is it fun… nope not yet. Do I feel comfortable there, nope not yet, but I will. The only way I will is if I keep going. Dammit I paid for it I might as well. Every now and then I have panic attacks thinking of how much money I am spending, then I look at it again and think, “It’s an investment in my health, would you rather spend the money on Doctors’ visits or on this.” I choose this. I choose my health. I choose a future where I know I am healthy and that I can do anything I want. That’s what I choose, I choose me…
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