The steps I am taking

I am off track on my diet. I don’t know what happened. I keep thinking I am doing fairly well and then all of a sudden a craving hits me like a two by four. I can’t stay away from sugar. I am also not doing well with the exercising aspect of things. I am just very unmotivated. I don’t know why really but I need to get back on track. So here’s the plan;

Step 1
Get eating under control. I am going back to my South Beach diet roots. I will resume Phase 1 on the 17th of March. Why the 17th you ask? Well I will tell you, I will be home alone at that point for two weeks which seems like the best time to do it so I don’t take out the wonderful mood swings I will be having on anyone. The last time I did Phase 1 the first 5 days were horrible, awful headaches, weird dreams, not sleeping, and mood swings like you wouldn’t believe. It was all worth it though because after the fog lifted I felt AMAZING!

Step 2
Get my butt off the couch and on the treadmill. Why is it that walking on the treadmill feels like a death sentence? It is no different than walking anywhere else and there is a TV for me to watch and music to listen to in the comfort of my own home where there is no one to judge. I also have some great friends that try to get me to go to the gym with them but some how it just doesn’t work. It seems if the activity is called exercise I am opposed to it. Don’t know why that is it just is.

Step 3
Look for the positive. I now know a healthy way to eat that I didn’t know before. I used to think I knew what was good for me food wise. I realized shortly after starting South Beach how much crap I was actually consuming. The detox part of the diet was hard but once I got there I felt like I could climb a mountain. ( Of course I didn’t climb a mountain because that would be the dreaded exercise part) I can do this. I did it before and now I have a long stretch of time to get myself together before the holidays are upon us again (That’s when I got off track the first time) I also haven’t gained any of the weight back, I have just been maintaining. That’s a positive of it’s own. 

Say what you mean and mean what you say

Say what you mean and mean what you say. That’s really all I ask. I am so tired of the passive aggressive behavior that people have seemed to adopt these days. Why does no one feel the need to really come out and say what they want? I don’t read minds, it isn’t a gift that I want nor one I possess. If you want something done a certain way then TELL ME! If you are upset about something then TELL ME!! I hate trying to figure out what people want or what they mean when they say something and then I get crap for “reading too much into thing” and I want to scream, “YOU MADE ME THIS WAY!!” It is your fault I read into things because if I didn’t I would have no idea what the hell is going on.

Why is it that you are damned if you do and damned if you don’t? I try not to over think things but then when I let them go it turns out that was the comment I should have read into because now the person who made it is pissed because I didn’t read between the lines. I can’t take it anymore. It drives me up a fing wall. The other thing I can’t stand are people who are upset with a person and rather than tell them they are upset they either ignore them or say “It’s fine” or “whatever”. Obviously it isn’t fine and obviously I am going to have no idea what to do with the comment of “Whatever”. Once again, not a mind reader! This isn’t just in the personal aspect of my life, this is work, school, and personal. What happened to straight forward people? Now straight forward people are “mean”. I would rather be mean than a twit that won’t say what they actually mean. Just saying.